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purple and orange and blue

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sing a rainbow

sing a rainbow too

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listen with your ears

and sing everything you see

I can sing a rainbow

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Tuesday, November 30, 2004

AAAAHHHHHHHHH !!! my tigger is blind now!!wad did i do the last time it(the banner) stayed at the bottom? =) lol u noe haiz we had meeting with the sec2 prefects todae AND i went to the wrong place!!!ar haha i laugh at my gong-ness now ... ar waited for them in vain for 45mins from 8.16-9.03am ..looked at the map (of the holding sch) trying to delude myself tt there's a courtyard(tts where we were told to meet)...anywae i racky the place while urm "Waiting " the place is quite good.. the holding sch has been given a new coat of paint looks much better now..the signboard is up and all,more pleasing to the eye,found some short-cuts and so on.. eventually yes i returned to the current sch and whala they were all there...,basically i felt happier FINALLY found them,anyway i dont know how the sec2s took the meeting,but it was intended to be a heart to heart talk ,so frankness is something we shld be upfront abt..it can be quite scary 7 senior prefects to 1 great sec2 prefect,i wont sae its not intimidating .but shld be ok i guess ,everyone smiled, its about learning from feedbacks ,tts how we improve u see, something christabel said melted my tofu -consistency heart when mel and jas asked her which senior she found doesnt deserve her respect she replied 'i believe that every prefect here will get my respect,everyone has stumbled ,and even the basic thing like asking a girl to button-up requires courage,sometimes u even get humiliated,everyone of us has gone through tt,so theres no one i c who issnt worthy getting my respect"cool i guess sometimes we as seniors we often forget this v.little stuff,cause we often seek to find the bigger picture,we forget the little stuff that makes us unique,the stuff that gets us rooted ,everybody did try and tts the sprit of the pl prefects we hope will continue ,thanx sec2s for widening our scope of view ,a perspectivefrom a jrs point of view,we appreciate ur frankness =)

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4:16 AM

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Sunday, November 28, 2004

sick!! u can try frying an egg on my forehead ,and it will sizzle happily ok im eggerating(is this how it is spelt?)by the way i like trix hair ! esp the top it sticks out rather unique talked to her a while then when in for service .ok i learnt something new todae i was reading the chinese book of short story(holi homework) then i was a little puzzled when i read this line da4 ge1 zuo4 le4 wo1 de4 sun4 feng1 che1 ,i was wondering sun4 feng4 che1 urm is there such a vehicel?cause ive only heard of bicycles and stuff no sun4 feng 1 che1 .gosh only to find out from dad tt it means taking a ride frm someone,even my younger bro knows tt =) tts means ive got to buck up .but well we each hav diff gifts right?just tt my chi is a little bit urm hurmp need polishing .but it will be betta with jiawen as my partner,hopefully!! haha hear her sing chi wayang all day(by the way tts not a compliment),i really hope they wont seperate us into diff chi class according to grades ,cause i learnt alot frm jiawen(she converse with me mainly in chi) .and yes we all know how much she yaks all day probably more than 10000 words in a day haha who knows mabey she exceeds that amount and plus we make great partners ,nv fought or had partner squabblings before urm yar larz we also like to irritate each other,she pokes me with her colourful pens all day ,while i try to hide her stuff esp her pencil case !!! if not she'll go arnd poking me with her weapon,gosh how i wish she cld see this !haha i actually appreciate her..i mean yes i do ...but ar she dont come online at all unless it is purely sch work ,basically she is one of the best pal i ever had..to god be the glory!! yeah i shld print this out and urm see her reaction!!esp the wayang part.HA

and yeah i got huiwens letta ,thnnx zongs ! yupz its time i cared more for my two buddies in pb !! pray tt god will watch them grow in pb

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2:02 AM

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Friday, November 26, 2004

this feels weird was at orchard on wed ,i think i always dun notice the ppl arnd me ,sheryl,tanchun,eliza were arnd there but didnt spot them ,anyway it was some kind of adventure,2 ppl made me feel like a lunatic ,since so many ppl asked me abt my nick on msn,i shall say it here then i dun hav to repeat myself haha u noe im lazy=) i dun know why but somtimes my facial expressions can send the wrong msg to others.if im not wrong the 2 ppl i scared away shld be pl-lites,there was this girl ,shld be sec 1 cause urm dunnoe just gut feelings ,ok back to the story yeah i was just walking arnd with my mum then this girl came up to me ,just kept staring at me frm a dist,then she came closer,i was expecting her to say sumthing,but dead silence so when i wanted to say hi but was feeling quite akward then,i didnt even know her ,just when i started opeaning my mouth ,bang she was like as if running a race she jumped a little and speed off ,there i stood dumbfounded,still recovering frm the event that ive yet to diciffer and claerly process in my mind.ok next was at the orchard mrt loo was washing my hands,cld see the girl in the mirror ,she was i think trying to figure out who i was,but this time i knew who she was ,frm badminton and ive seen her before while doing our daily db check
ok nvm i just went out of the loo like as if nothing happened,saw her at the scanning machine again and yupz caught a glimpse of her looking over yeeps normal reaction i think i gave her a face tt said"urm yes how can i help u" whao she past by and said"wads larz" huh?????in my mind i was saying to myself... hey u stared at me first ...of course i just said nothing and urm smiled weirdly .it was weird i really felt like a seriouscase lunatic then .my mum was like laughing all the way home she thinks i must be really fierce in sch tts why .hurmp am i?the exco tells me ive got to be fiercer,haha whatever its the holis ,not time to fret over these stuff .

ok didnt go for training todae cause we had meeting sec3 prefects meeting ,this claud ar last min told me that shekinah was going to be hacked down so meeting had to be held at my home ,quite interesting=)haha meeting was at 8.30 for exco,i didnt set my alarm clock ,was talking to eliza till almost 2am in the morn .anyway at 8.15 mel and yi already came and i was still sleeping ,haha too bad for them much as they wld like to see me not washed up yet i quickly made my way to the bathroom,e meeting was quite fruitful ive got to say ,we cleared self-evaluation,synapse and stuff . this acsar ? always change the meeting time and date ..i think 21th dec as the date line urm has to be extended because our co-host is really bz .haha

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4:39 AM

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Tuesday, November 23, 2004

feelin rather groggy now ..was out of the house frm6 -4 pm yeeps my mom was *ahem * not v.pleased but i kinda think shes used to it liaoz,always have meetings even at night or really early in thr morn actually i do think the exco is kinda crazy sometimes our earliest out of sch meeting was like supposed to be at 6am but then it was madness...nobody wanted to wake up tt early so changed it to 8 in the morning haha INSANity ,oooooh i luv tanchun she ased for the meeting to be later if not it wld not be the gathering of the exco but illegal gathering of the PANDAS.ok anywae yes timing for training is mad to0 8.30 at marichie or nee ann poly(bukit timah) either depending on the day .meaning weve got to wake up as early as 6 ,talk abt morning jog.

ok training took its toil on me todae ,but actually i actually enjoy maritchie training ,but perhaps it was a little more demanding today ,plus its the time of the month ,anyway was a bit "retarded "after training reflexes abt slower than usual ,took quite a while to respond to stuff.after that went back to sch to give the letters to my db prefects and check out the sec 1 orientation planning yeah!!!claud claud was dere so glad ,i tot i was the only exco there,can see some of the sec2s rising up ,u noe those who went for the johore trip theres no faliure but only feedback ,so yeah ,doesnt mean if we do comment on stuff u can improve in doesnt mean u are not a good leader ,its a learning process .and we do not want to keep comming and intrude into stuff ,something that u dont want too,i believe ,claud and i believe that u all can do it ,we want u to learn independently in ur own space ,not pressured by us so "jia yous!!!haha u noe i do agree claud is scary funny cause SOME jrs wld shiver and press the wrong buttons when they talk to her haha she ar ...dont think she is feirce or intimidating , just try talking to her she is so full of crap not to mention EGOISTIC ,yeeps so if u all do hav any qns pls do go to her and urm dont be scared ...shes nice!!=)

anyway was supposed to go for class outing ,but have been out the whole day with track and meeting and stuff my mum encouraged me to stay at home if nort ill fall sick ..sometimes when she gets worried shell urm be a little louder than usual ,hoping that her word will probably linger in my mind for a longer time ariel called to meet me at arnd 4.15(just came home then frm meeting)for class outing yeeps got a quan gao "'girl ar stay at home u tired anot ,cannot take it ,dont go "but urm quite loud so ariel thought it was a scolding ,haha her voice turned soft heyys ariel if ur reading this ,dont worry shes not angry just worried and dont worry shes not angry with u .anyway well i had to skip the outing well theres always next year rites!urm it wld be after os so shell let me go

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6:12 AM

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Monday, November 22, 2004

grrrr ...homework makes my stomache turn inside out...seriously! i can complain abt the homework all day throughout the holis sooooooooooooooooo i shld just keep my mouth shut. ahhhhhh all stars!!the dance i didnt know there was 2 diff versions to it...meaning ive got to find the other version,or slighty change the dance !hurmph .okie haha after this we will cheograph the mass dance ,dont wanna confuse myself at this point of time can hardly remember all the steps .short-term memory date line 21th dec!!!!!!!arrrrrrrr *cover face eyes,nose and whatever*

okie haha ive got a confession to make ! i buy pirated cds...gosh didnt know that there are so many of these shops in my estate ...this is wad happened i passed by this shop they had this big signboard "3 cds for $10" whao usually a cd wld cost twice tt amount yeah human instinct so my mum and i checked it out ...ok anyway Yeah was so happie that we got such a good deal,then just a few steps down there was this other stall"buy 1 for $3,buy4 for $10" unbelieable!but then we felt sore shld hav gone to the cheeper shop instead!!but then after tt,dunnoe why but i always seem to reflect on stuff,must be my training as a prefect in sch ,ok anyway i thought if we all bought prirated stuff ,then urm how much wld the artist earn then,mabey they'll decide tt singing doesnt pay much and TADA no more ppl to make music for us,urm actually just realise that the quality of the real stuff sounds betta ,dont believe me? try it =) but well pirated stuff still draws ppl cause it is cheeper like abt 4-7 times ...tts a real deal for ppl who dont place much importance on quality,but wld like to enjoy music

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2:07 AM

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Saturday, November 20, 2004

just watched shrek 2 ! puss in boots is irrisitably adorable ....act cuter! donkey too .the story on the whole was great ! nice plot ...tireds ...i really like "holding out for a hero " anyway ! to all prefects out there ,yay completed chrograping 4 parts of the dance (synapse)already ,but can someone help vivian and i burn the song "all stars" from smash mouth?wld appreciate it ! do call us or something...hey!!! to my dear db prefects do tell me when the next sec 1 o meeting is so i can pass u all something? thanks

dance!tundu! balance!
oh how easy it may seem.
do a little twirl
take a dizzy spin
ur flYING!!!!

stretch! push !remember it all
pulled !toiled!stretched and boiled
trying to be synchronised

take the stage ,take a bow
up on pointe
feel like air
super leaps,mega jumps
sisson onliare ,ondadon
see the smiles
wipe the sweat
big great smile

just trying to make up something i call it "workin it out" hope it makes sense thou

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5:42 AM

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Friday, November 19, 2004

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! i still can't post multiple photos in one post..... the last photo entitled "lala"(if u hav seen it) was just an experiment!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ahahahahahahahah elizabeth thia bao zhu(precious pig) is now free frm the "Os" haha im jealous ...must hav a buddy gathering someday ...hurmph or an outing with some great pb ppl ......aiyoh this lazy pig typing this entry now has been v.naughty,havent done finish her hw yet!and still wanna go out.

i wonder if amelia went for training todae?cause i told her pl wld be training wif them in the morn and i wld be there .if she did oh no i pang sei her .and i always promise ill go out with her someday ...in the end till now i havent made any plans with her YET.. *gulp*

hav been doing lotsa admin stuff arnd the house todae...glad to do tt really havin lived in a human sty (my rm) for nearly the past month,filed all my wks properly and cleared the cabinets*give myself a deserving pat on the head* haha mamas gonna be proud,haha this jasmine seah ar ,made claud fluster,"meeting on the 23rd" and she still can sound so sure abt it haha she can go and meet the sec 3s herself damn funny 26 th and 3rd mabey she mistook 3rd for 23rd haha clauds reaction is still playing in my mind..lol sunday!!! really wanna invite val to coos ,she,yo,val,mil,and a few others have been a great company for me at plmc but dunnoe if her father allows her.... ooooh nort forgeting shir too

went out to the market with mum as usual bought some stuff and made pizza !yummy.acs(br) called our house todae..i think my bro got into tt sch the principle wld like to hav an interview with him .haha i shld be happie for my bro rites!!! yea i do hope tt he can take triple sci too with all tt knowledge he wld be able to help my father in his business .and yes he can learn in a CHRISTIAN sch!!=) i think its really diff being in a christian sch ,and i think i kinda like being in a mission sch ,i bet he will too...i hope tt he will enjoy sch too

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2:54 AM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Tuesday, November 16, 2004

had training todae!!! at marichie(is tt how it is spelt) yay! i survived running more than 4.4km ,then we did slope training was darn tiring ,for the first time i think,we were more hard workin than dunman .and there seems to be some kind of hostility btw pl and dunman ,wo can ni,ni can wo and we hardly talk although we have been training tgh since jan excpt for some of them like my 2nd lao po amelia ,yan ting,wan ting cause mabey we hang out tgh at bishan b4 . we were all like taupoks (dried beancurd skins ) sinking into the cafes chair and refusing to move our lazy bums ,and weve nv drank so fast before... i think i gulped down a can of qoo apple juice in less than 2 mins ,so thirsty!!! oh haha i think mr lim was really nice ,he helped us chase away the monkeys and the roaming reptiles ....if he was younger he cld hav ben a zoo-keeper stationed at the reptile enclosure =_ mr lim said a monkey attacked an orange colour ,hugged it and opean the bootle for a drink! how smart of them ,they copy all our actions ,which make me a little starlted cause when mr lim asked whoose bottle was orange in colour,i found myself the only one raising my hands .but i drank from my bottle anyway ,it didnt seem to hav been attacked by the monkeys thou ,mabey its not my bottle after all.

okie this is so freaky,someone tried to break into our house yest at arnd 4.05 in the wee hrs of the morning ,the puzzling thing was the door was swinged wide opean without any signs of force or anything.weird ! and my bro was still sleeping like a pig when the alarm rang ...he ar no sense of emergency .anyway when the alarm sounded ,my father haha took a knife frm his bed side and when down ,i actually tot tt it was a dangerous thing to do ,i wld just hav locked ourselves in the room and call the police ,so training in the army is indeed usful even in the house=) my mum and i urm just cchecked the room for any suspicious characters ,my father called the police anyway ....haha i actually tot tt it was quite exciting was wondering if the police wld do what they do in the movies pour some unknown power and then look for finger and foot prints , i let my imagination go wild ,in the end they didnt ,just took some statements ,petrol arnd the area ,and left!haha but lrarnt quite a few stuff u noe the baton that they carry can be extendedand there is something shining at the tip of it ,not too sure what it is mabey it is just a metal tip or sumthing ?

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2:46 AM

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Monday, November 15, 2004

all this time ive been telling myself to shed some weight but hav yet to do anything abt that!!!!just stuffed down a delicious mushroom pizza ....weights training ,mr lim says it does not make u gain muscles ,hurmp not too sure abt tt cause i think my arms grew bigger a little .my mum is disgusted that my shin has grown so big due to training .haha ok one more year only how much more muscles can i gain rites?urm unless i join track again in jc .hehe my mum will SCREAM.

read the newspaper todae ,we hav to take 4 sub in jc ,and we must mix humans with sci ,i wld hav to choose chi ,gp,chem ,geog/lit actually i wld like to take phy ,econs and some other sub too but tt wld be equlavent to suffocating myself with too many sub.like the rest in 3b1 i wld like to go to sajc too ,hopefully in the same class also=) tt wld be so fun.seriously as i think back 2b2 o3' o2' was quite competative ,but also quite interesting,talking abt 2b2 i miss having ying and jac arnd although we still hang out together when we are free.3b1 ...its almost stress free ,we've got steff and letitia to entertain us 24/7 some of our teachers are funny too like mr low ooooooooooh and ms kang,shes haha lame .ok larz i guess we work and play at the same time so we are harmoniously balanced .

hehe met yanni frm cheung cheng at changi beach club ,we went for a swim there ,met her at the johore camp ppl frm evo-lites shld know her . the best way to get to really know a person,is to work with them and not just by communicating only ,that probably how we broke the ice at the johore trip althugh we only spent 2 days tgh i feel as if i noe some of them betta than some of the ppl i know urm aquaintences i say .

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1:45 AM

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Sunday, November 14, 2004

feel like i havent blogged in a million years =) anyway i was given this inventory form todae at church,it is something like confessing ur sins and all the stuff u hav commited lets take for an example stealing ,like i still remember when i think i was pri 1or mabey a little older i borrowed some stationary frm my friend(cant remember what it is),the thing is that i forgot to return it to her only realised it when i opeaned up my bag when i returned home i was so frightened she wld scold me so i kept quiet abt it.i mean yes hurmp nv thought a prefect a pl prefect like me wld hav no integrity, disclipline head summore .being dyslexic i do forget the things i do really easily ,however tt does not excuse me frm escaping sin thou somtimes i still do bring my partner stuff home by mistake still,and well dont hav much childish thoughts anymore , and i can bring myself to return the stuff to jiawen without any hesitation.

training at nee ann was betta than i expected ,but im still aching all over ,i simply lack training,easy for me to say but hard to put it in action.actually havent been felling too good for the past month ,i tot i had forgiven but well i havent forgotten it yet ,i realise i dont trust ppl as freely as in the past because the unforgiveness and bitterness haunts me ,this is not good ,everytime things,episode flash in my mind i feel hurt .i thought i cld live with it ,i ignore ,i try not to get too close to them to prevent getting hurt again .however god seemed to keep prompting me to get things repaired .something i simply refused to do .i really thank god for being my saviour ,reminding me of his goodness and for dying on the cross for my sins ,if he cld die for us ,for me .he was blameless but yet suffered on the cross for us ,how noble .when the ppl scorned at him he still prayed for them ,what greather love such as this ,loving ur enemies .i do hav my pride too ,its hard but god is speaking to me ,i do want everything to be right in place i will try but do give me some time ,the road ahead is narrow "i do not know what to do lord ,but my eyes are on u" loving my enemies wld be a challange , seriously prayer really works wonders really feel much betta now ,theres less hurt,my pain hes taken away !he careth for me and u . therfore i urge all non-chistians out there ,i hav a loving god who loves me even thou ive sined and made him upset ,he helps me deal with the problems in my life ,dont be left alone in this world without a saviour !!!! i believe tt all christians can testify to gods great love !dont lose out!

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5:40 AM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Sunday, November 07, 2004

heyy!!! back frm camp...much to jiawens horror and much to my delight!!,got buslag after the whole johore trip[slept like a fat pig for nearly two days} guess what iwe brought back from camp.......u guessed it,an unforgettable outdoor experience and leech bites! was initially quite terrified of getting bitten by one ,ok i shrieked when i saw one sucking and wouldnt let go of me no matter how i tried to pull it out ,it was a whole outdoor classroom kind of experience ,one tt ill remember v.fondly ok let me tell u some leechy fact (first hand experience=) the leech is actually as thin as a thread,however it actually grows as it sucks ur blood ,it is painless at first untill it grows larger then the suction is greater,if im not wrong it grows to be 5 times its size and will then drop off frm u .and they move by jumping frm their ends ,quite cute!but when ur there they are a horror

ok the next most unforgettable event in the whole camp was actually bed time!!!!!!!! 8 of us shared two double decker bed together.claud,alicia,jas,rach and i decided to sleep together on the lower deck ,gosh what a terrible mistake ! just when we tot we were all cosy and comfortable with the space we have and all...tts when the nighmare all began!rach turned out to be a *ahahahahah VIOLENT SLEEPER poor us got kicked by her powerful legs,if we rolled down th ebed it wldnt be so bad !!!free frm her kicking however we were so squashed because she rolled down frm the sides and STOLE our sleeping spaces,so we were stucked all through the night ,the next day fatifue started to set in!!!!hurrs learnt my lesson and cuddled up with wanzhen tanchun and waiyin the next night .well but after all that kicking ,ur still my great friend rach=)

okie so this camp was really diff because we were not protected ,if this camp was to be held in sin gapore ,it wld probably be banned, we had to climb up and down steep slopes of abt 4-5 m high in a leech infested area,i sliped quite a few times myself but luckily my grp was great we formed a human chain to catch the ppl frm sliding down ,and the facilitators wld just observe us and wld not render help to us ,tts good actually i guess we all learnt alot abt ourselfs a little betta ,climbing the waterfall was far most the scariest ,some of the rocks were dislodged frm the ground or slippery because of the coat of algae shld u step on them ,it wld be a nightmare being stucked in a jungle infested with leeches everytime u stop more will crawl on u,so the trick to rid off those mean things is to not stop walking .we had night walk too in a jungle ,was really dark ,we had to follow the string to our destination ,im glad i cld still see a little in the dark cuase my partner cldnt without her spects kept tripping over the roots of the trees protruding frm the ground and the twines that trap her feet a few times .but it was really nice ,for the first time we were so close to nature ,cld hear the nocturnal animals.NICE!!!

i like sherwood and no man's land we had to walk across a log across a river abt 4m long?ok not too sure but abt that length , it was tricky fell in the river 3 times !but the water was nice and refreashing ! we also had to climb up a cemented wall,like the one u see at army camps screened on movies .ruggedness is someting tt u wld learn frm the camp,we all got blisters and lots of cuts frm all the trecking and walking through bushes,however because we were together ,our support for one another eased the pain almost totally,haha i really like it !!enjoyed it=) we also got to nettwork with ppl frm other schs .my grp alone had 18 participants all great ppl frm 5 diff schs .

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7:11 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Monday, November 01, 2004

i wld be skipping track this whole week ,going to the newater treatment centre tml!!!!yeah with 3b2 and 3a1 and 3c1 yeah!!! jas and i wld hav the company of claud ,tan chun,melissa,cheryl,yunqian,celene..wha so many ppl pris tiff,kat .vivian,jac,ying...many many more.then frm wed to fri well be in johore!!! camp going to be reallly fun,nv camped outside of singapore before ,this sense of adventure fills me ,heard that there wld be waterfalls ,hills and lakes urm...snakes...wild bore and yikes LEECHES too=)we wld be mixing arnd with ppl frm other schs too,so this camp is really dfferent.i hope to gain lotsa experience and skills there .

haha jas was talking abt bringing suntan lotion there!lol is there much sunlight in the jungle???=)well mabey,but i dont think so,but at the same time i hope so,nv seen jas tan as in a brownish tan before ,she only turns red in the sun.had maths lesson today at ava laopos spects are weird,the plastic lens just poped out while we were in the midst of lesson,and yes as we can all guess,she was as blind as a bat and worst still we were made to draw graphs,histograms and stuff,the paper was like a few cm frm her nose.really funny!hung out with the exco and val,at macs!we fed ourselves with artery clogging food!we ate bk like not too long ago.nvm lets grow fat together!

u noe i really want to get my ears pierced!however im already much freaked out by injections what more abt piercing my ears?kat pierced hers todae!ouch shes really brave.i still cant seem to upload the pics i took with some of u in the sch,when i fix that prob ill put it up soon hopefully!

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1:58 AM

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